Sunday, April 30, 2006
loser
i just spent the past hours online.doing nothing constructive.just surfing from webpage to webpage.reading blogs of people who are not even related to me.considering the fact that i've been up since 7am.im such a loser.and im so tired now.but i cant slp, not when its not 11pm yet.and my nm readings' looking at me.with that accusing look.oh blimey.cut off the internet connection.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:46 PM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
disgusted
i am seriously disgusted at what perverts can do.and its scary to know how vulnerable this whole cyber thing is.*puke*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:50 PM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
lets play bluff!
i love sociology of family.
i am very happy.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:29 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
my new green file!
my NEW green file!was contemplating to buy a new file for family...
its like family!!! NOT new media ok!
but still, my PW file's rusty,so...
anyway its gona be an NM file after exams=P
see the PILE of lect notes and readings?
this is excluding textbook..
*FAINTS
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:00 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
questions
can somebody tell me why i have to wait THRITY mins for a bus?can somebody tellme why i dunno how to study for family?can somebody tell me why i duno how to score for exams?can somebody tellme why do i always get lousy grades?can somebody tell me why i'm having a breakout?can somebody tell me why my brother can't follow my instructions?can somebody tell me why i don't feel HOME?can somebody tell me why i hafta do this during exams?can somebody tell me why there's so many things on my mind?yours truly,pessimist
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:52 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
guilty
yes yes, im guilty...guilty for all the 'crimes'...i think i am a super-neglector(ok there's no such word:P)...i've just received a complaint from my junior that i've been avoiding her for a year!haha...cause i always say want meet in the end...but hey, she was in my TO-MEET list!yup!i drew up a TO-MEET list today!friends that i MUST meet up after exams! the list's quite long! oh, just a remainder to everyone...DO NOT GO SWIMMING ON A SUNDAY!there's so many kids in the pool that you find it hard to believe that Sinpore's experiencing ageing population...and the water is...so disgusting! i can see all the PARTICLES in the water...eeeee...i was so er diaoed...i must must must study!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:20 PM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
great
im balding...getting restless...losing the drive to study like i did last week...and my mind goes wondering all over again.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:54 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
-blessed-
i woke up this morning to be greeted by two lovely smsES:) one's from hocky hocky(which made me thought of the possibility of him wearing lok kok and camping in the clubrm studying) haha!... another's from angeline my og mate:) she was concerned that i'm very stressed up by soci...how sweet is that! and of course after all the warmth that i've felt came a sense of guilt...honestly i think i'm a lousy friend...haha...and most of the time i tend to neglect my friends especially those whom i dun see often...and how convincing can it be when i hardly show them how much i love them?...that's something i should look into...after exams:)2days to exams! i'll be kidding if i say that im not stressed or scared at all...but i felt different this time as compared to last sem...i feel more prepared and in controlled of myself...i know where im heading...i know where i stand in terms of revision wise...i made an extra effort to keep to my study plans(though not ALL was adhered:P)...i still watch tv BUT in moderation k...haha...there many things which are just so different from last sem...and im glad that it is...:)oh im so so so proud of myself!!!haha...i've been a hermit for the past one week...the furthest that i went was the supermarket near my house...haha...and i've been practising whining to my mum! *beams* i think she enjoys it lor...haha...but she was saying that i only stay at home cause its exams...and its ONCE every half a year...haha...and my brother ka jiao me everyday!(-_-") but he's still quite nice la, he ask me to take vitamins when i say im having headache...haha...and guess what, after reading all the stuff about family...inequality of women...changing landscape stuff...new media...and the tv shows that i've watched...i suddenly got real scared about the future!haha...everything's so uncertain...all the values morals deteriorating in Singapore...and i gotta scared myself just now by thinking about my CAP...cause i realised the adverse effects of getting such a lousy CAP last sem...its REALLY BAD! even of i get 4.0 this sem, and 4.0 next sem, my overall will be a mere 3.5...*faints*...and its 4.0!!! omg...i cant link 4.0 to myself...haha...oh one last thing, its so intimitading to go swimming! there were three ang mohs who swam so so so much faster than me! i was like halfway through my lap and they've already completed a lap(-_-")...and guess what, they were like creating big waves which made me swim even slower...*faints*...btw, i keep getting "click to activate activeX for this webpage" when i go visit blogs leh...then i will get error and everything will close...anyone can help me?...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:25 AM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
ohmygod!!!
omg omg omg!!! the minister for ********* just came for a visit at my place!ok, i better dun mention names or watsoever...he happen to be doing his visits at my block...before he came i was home alone and when i was told by one of the person that he's coming soon, my heart was beating very fast! i remember receiving my bursary from him when iw as in J1...but that was just a brief session with him...what happened just now was very personal and different...and the two useless guys in my family gotta spoil it...*disgusted*anyway yah, i was talking to one of the helpers when my dad came home, and the first stupid thigns he said was "DUN **** FOR ***!"...and he was smiling all the way...SO HAPPY with himself...in was like thinking, "WTH"...no, its not that i am saying everyone MUST support ***, but it is obvious that its just another of his nonsense...then he started ranting and ranting about how he's not benefitting from ***...moments later, the minister reached my unit...he was very polite and sincere, i felt a sense of warnth cause somehow i just feel that he is one of people out there who's doing his utmost best for Singapore...but guess what, my dad gotta spoil it by spouting nonsense again...saying what my brother cannot find job...and all the nonsense...then, my mum and brother came home...WOAHS...and the minister wanted to converse with my brother, to find out more about his job-seeking so far...my brother was so nua, he even went to the fridge to get stuff to eat,all the while oblivious and pretend to be ignorant of whats going on...its only after my mum's nagging then he finally walk to our doorstep to talk to the minister...(-_-")...i was...at a loss of words...:S...and once again, my dad never fails to embarrass me...he started lighting up his cigaratte and smoking...in front of the minister...WHILE talking to the minister...how rude!i never felt more embarrassed of my family in my entire life...and its not due to the fact that we're from an average family with low income or what, but its the BEHAVIOR...so what if we're not rich?...no one's looking down on us, only my dad is looking down on himself...not being rich is not a crime, but its an absolute shame to behave that way...and this is not the first incident...even in front of friends or relatives he is like this, always trying to look good and thinks he is smart...its even worse that he behaved that way in front of the minister...ifelt so ashamed...i think i will just avoid all the people who were around just now...i seriously felt that there are many people out there who are sincere and really keen on making Singapore a better palce to live in...perhaps some of you might think that im under the influence from all the social studies textbook or nation-building stuff that i've come across...but no...just ask yourself, how true things are...by the way, i shook te minister's hand and took photo with him!!! *WOOHOO*!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:25 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
soci-phobic
its hard to keep me interested.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:08 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
after-dinner activity
my after-dinner activity was... to visit the doctor and i got an injection...was feeling itchy all over! and i seriously couldn't concentrate at all...and i knew that IT was coming...cause...i have...Eczema
(a form of dermatitis, a skin irritation characterized by red, flaky skin, sometimes with cracks or tiny blisters.)i was reaclling how bad it was last time...when i was younger...there was a period of time when i dread sleeping, cause i will subconsciously scratch and scratch during my sleep...and i'll wake up to see my skin red...and my skin "torn"...and guess what i did? i hafta tie all the openings of my long-sleeved shirt and pants when i sleep to prevent myself from scratching...but i think im too smart for myself, haha... i somehow still managed to scratch and thus i'll wake up seeing those small patches of blood stains on my shirt...blahs...oh, this is what i got ffrom the internet:"These blisters may also look like bubbles just below the surface of the skin. It can be extremely itchy, but scratching damages the fragile skin and exacerbates the problem so it is important for people with eczema to try to leave the area alone."well, i wish...the hot weather nowadays' driving everyone crazy...it just makes me feel as if i will melt any minute when i walk out there under the sun...to people like me, it means something more...it means that "outbreaks" are likely to come...and the fact that exams are coming... WORST
oh i forgot to mention, stress can cause eczema to "outbreak" too...so its really a WONDERFUL combination to have the GREAT sun and GREAT exams coming at the same time...and that sets me thinking...i should really not have kids next time...cause i dun wanan pass down this kind of lousy genes to my kids man...just like how my dad probably had passed down to me...blahs...my brother also suffers this kind of problem...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:39 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
lousy...
ok, i've been up since 8am! on a saturday morning! can you believe it? oh blimey...i cant help it!!! i wish i can slp till at least 10am? noe wat, the early part of the day is always so hard to pass...its this period of time when most of my friends are still not awake(yes, most of my friends only wake up 11plus 12...dun deny! )...so there's no one to entertain me...watch tv?oh PLEAAAAASSSSEEEEEEEEEE...the shows are either those children kind or china or taiwan lousy shows...so...here i am, ONLINE...and yes, i usually spend my weekend mornings online...doing nothing in specific...blog surfing...ssearching for stuff to download(bad habit tt i have recently)...
have you guys read people's blogs and wish you were them? or part of what's going on in their lives?...haha...this is something that's always happening to me...maybe im someone who's not easily satisfied?...but not really leh...but honestly, i do admit that im someone who's insecure...so i can be feeling real confident at a point of time, and moments later, i just feel like digging a hole to hide myself...and i'll just keep thinking...thinking and thinking and thinking...and my bad habit during exams: watch tv!!! i watch tv not because im a tv addict leh...but because i watch to destress...i'll get more n more stressed at the thought of EXAMS...then i'll watch tv...but the more i watch, the less i study! so even more stressed!...and i've been having headaches and fainting speels very frequently...diaossssssssss...
okie...i forgot what i was gona blog about...talking to princess now!:)
anyway i stumbled upon this blog which was talking about being alone... am i someone who can be alone? yes. in fact sometimes i prefer being alone. am i anti-social? no. just that sometimes you know that its very troublesome to arrange with people. worst still, if you ask your friends and they say they cant or whatsoever, you'll feel disappointed. and some friends are always along that line, so, dun ask anymore. haha...and when you go out with your friend/s you have to consider stuff too...and blah blah blah...
i realised my entries are always kinda short...this one's rather long!:)
btw my last entry was about my dad la, not anyone else...
oh, something else which i wanan blog about...i remember when i was crying like nobody's business when my dad refuse to elt me go on a diving trip when its 2days before the trip and he said yes a long time ago...this friend told me to move out, to get away, to get my deserved freedom...then i was saying "its not so easy to do so..." and sad to say, even up till now, i still cant do it...and im regretting it now...*sigh*...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:31 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
DAMN YOU!
as much as i wanan helpas much as i wanan make a better life for myselfyou refuse to just do a small thing by passing me that piece of paperso what u wan me to do?you n your stupid ego!go eat shit and die!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:02 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
do do do
im currently doing alot of stuff which im not certain if i want...im scared...but im just doing it first...cause i dun wanan let any chances slip by...btw, im talking abt HALL! :P
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:18 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
wake up wake up!
"我不会打电话给你，因为听到你的声音我会更想你..."
so sweet!!! so pls go watch channelU 7pm show!!!:):):)
this is what i learnt from NM lecture today...Developmental stages of relatonship:
Oriental stage--> Exploratory stage-> Affective stage--> Stable stage
so...maybe SDU can pay the NM dept to teach people on courtships...haha...did i mention that i watch "you've got mail" today? but not complete la...my lecturer screened it for us...so nice! but of course its tied in to our topic la...
hmmmZ...its a one-way square...differnent in lengths...so actually its not a square, its a rhombus?...nono..that's not the right word...but rhombus closer to it...
i luv princess!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:39 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
活着，从来不是一个人的事...
in the context of huo yuan jia(movie), i understand...in the context of a person living in the modern society, i understand to a CERTAIN extent...活着，从来不是一个人的事...because you still have your family, your loved ones, your friends, your dreams that you've yet to fulfilled...not because you think you're sacrificing for the society...its not a noble thinking...its CRAP...-whatever-anyway, i think my NM project group rocks!:)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:04 PM
OMG!!!
-43mins-all his loved ones are dead! the girl never get to give his dad the little pouch...the mum never succeed in getting his son to listen to her...PUI PUI PUI!!!and guess what? all the killings is because of a stupid mistake by one of his useless disciples...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:03 AM
PUI!!!
im watching the "FAMOUS" huo yuan jia now...41mins into the movie and i got the urge to stop and blog...i jsut wanna begin by saying...PUI!!!...what stupid shit man!i've got no idea how the rest of the movie's gona be but im really pissed and disguested...what's with all the fighting to attain the BEST in tian jin? al the blood shed, lives lost...is it worth it?...what about the family of the deceased?...and i cant help but say that huo yuan jia is an IDIOT...fancy keeping all the disciples without QC and letting them splurge on his money to the extent of bankruptcy...all because of what? EGO!!!...guys and their ego...*gives a disgusted face*...before i cont watching...i just wanna say...PUI PUI PUI!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:54 AM
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my NEW green file!