Friday, March 31, 2006
im still tired
i thought things would be better after close com...but i still got stuff at hands...2 more projects of which i feel that im like giving crapy stuff, really useless of me...im like a burden to the project groups?...and all the meetings interviews...not to mention exams are in 3weeks' time...i wish i can study my exams?...hais...i actually yearn to have more time for my studies...sometimes its not that i like blogging things like "oh blimey!" or whatsoever...but there are just so many stuff that i wanna say but i cant...even writing an entry like this wil probably lead to people asking me what's with my entry...or simply think that i dislike what im doing and god knows what...there are just so many complications...and each and every step that you made, someone will be there to judge...a slight wrong move made, that's it...the judgement's made on you...not that im someone who's totally perfect and absolutely dun judge pple...its like a vicious cycle?...things that have happened...things that are going on...and things that will happen...brain's not working le...i stained my white bag:(
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:20 AM
Friday, March 24, 2006
blimey
OH BLIMEY
and
OH BLIMEY BLIMEY!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:54 PM
my best friend
-best friend-my best friend is never angry although im always too busy to go out with her
my best friend accommodates me for all my shortcomings
my best friend is always there to hold me whenever i falls
my best friend knows what kind of guys i like
my best friend can tolerate all my nonsense
and most of all...
my best friend loves me!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:34 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
grumpy
it feels weird to have slacked at home the whole day...but oh wells... i did...i slacked to the extent of feeling sian le leh...and there's this constant feeling of restless and tired...i duno wats happening to me...
did some blog surfing...cant help but get envious of my frens...haha, thats my bad habit...going blog surfing when i know i'll end up being envious and hoping that the same could have happened on me...and i just cant be like others writing all my inner thoughts onto my blog...cause i know people will ask me...and how will people judge me when they read my blog...or is there something which i blog about and will grow to regret blogging in times to come...tts me, think alot...
i hate the feeling of being restricted...not having the freedom to do wtv i want...even if its just mere staying over in school...and the fact that my mum will find some reason for me not to go bangkok, last time this riot, this time also riot...riots riots riots...lidat i might as well just stay ast home 24/7, since there might be some terrorists out there for all i know rite...i just felt as if the world crashed down on me when i hear her say the same old things..ok, mayb im too drama mama...but no one can actually understand how i feel towards my family...sometimes i whld rather slp on the streets...
no, its not that i dun wana blog happy stuff...but my happy moments are always short...by the time i reach home and settle down to blog, it probably fade away already or something happened to me that made me think abt other stuff...haha...
there was a period of time i dread coming online...cause even if u're in busy mode EVERYONE just msn u...when u just wanan be be on msn, not appear offline, and be undisturbed...no offense to anyone...
i still cant get over that barrier in me...
*emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:50 PM
Monday, March 20, 2006
:)
it feels good to walk along the corridor, knowing that there's no more ongoing project/S, plus the fact that i've submitted y essay...:)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:38 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
finally...
after weeks and weeks of hardwork, i can FINALLY catch up on my slp, have a less-stress sch life and most imptly catch up on my sch work:(...i just wanna thank all who've been there for me all these while... especially my close frens:)... you know who you are... despite all the unhappiness that occured, and all the sudden "eruptions" on my side, i still luv u all...and its heart-warming to know that 苦命九姐妹will stand by each other, against all odds...im sure we dun mind doing sai kang, just wished that we have more help...but then again, without others, we can also prove others wrong! we're so diversified that we can do ANYTHING- logistics, carrying tables and chairs, lanyard making, scoreboards, ushering, data entry, admin, wrapping of prizes, progs, marketing, publicity, booth duty, clubroom duty, secretarial work, writing of articles, giving out flyers, pasting posters, treasury, PR, mking lotsa phonecalls, delivering invitations, fixing printer, packing goodie bags...im proud of every one of you!and to others that i did not actually mentioned, im sure i've alr told you how much i appreciate you...just a thought...这世界是黑暗的
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:03 AM
Friday, March 17, 2006
well..
-never assume things-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:20 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
im sorry...
everytime i found the strength to stand up again...
i just lose it as quickly as i found it...
i think i've failed as a friend..
*im sorry jingyi..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:33 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
choices?
you lost the right to choose once you're in it...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:32 PM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
i m s i n k i n g
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:15 PM
its a struggle...
*10days to go!*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:36 PM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
the clouds are slowly going away...
it feels terrible to be lost...i dunno wat to do...who to turn to...not even my close friends...just duno what to tel them...and i guess till now i cant really get wat i wanan expressed across to them...i tried looking for an answer...hoping i will feel better...i actually felt better after crying...*thanks hock:)*
11days to go! *go go go!*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:17 PM
('?')
-wats wrong with me?-
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:21 AM
Monday, March 06, 2006
stop it.
im not what you think i am...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:22 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
new skin:)
yup its a new skin...
view the "no turning back" in a postive way:)
looking forward!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:12 PM
Friday, March 03, 2006
emo emo emo...
been having alot of random thoughts lately...my ncc life...my jc life...my uni life...the past...the present...the future...hmm...dunno wat to say...
oh, im supposed toblog abt this...i have a FRIEND...who though my bday's 28th feb..and she sent me a MMS on that day to happy wish me happy bday...haha, i thought her service privider lagging...so i din say much...and she actually called me on 1st march to confessed that she mixed up my bday with her fren's! hahaha...so TYPICAL her...SO KAT***** KOK SOK YEE..*oppS!* did i just mention her name?...but it was real sweet of her to call me! and i just suddenly feel so so so happy! admist all the stuff that's going on now, it feels gd to talk to my "old" frens...
speaking of which, i met my dearest jc fren ytd! outsie central library...and we just stood there, right in the middle of the area outside lib to talk for nearly 20mins?or more than that?...haha..i feel so so so hapy to see her!!! seeing her jus tmade my day!:) and its so funny to talk abt the PAST...hahaha...auntie maly, i miss u!!! miss ya loads and loads and loads!!!
and CHUT HUILING...oh man, i really dunno how town brown cow...haha...our trip i mean...but anyway, like i said, we might have drifted(i realised i've drifted with all my gd frens:s),but we both know that we still care alot for each other! *hugS*...pls take care of yourself...and do come to me if u need a listening ear!
ke ah zhen...:):):) i'll date you out soon!
*emo*emo*emo*emo*emo*emo*emo*emo*emo*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:12 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
today is not my (not-so)FREE day!:)
yes we're all stretched...
but yes, we can do it...
fighting all the restrictions, hoping to do more for everyone...
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NO, i did not regret:)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:50 AM
-best friend-
i m s i n k i n g