Wednesday, March 22, 2006
grumpy
it feels weird to have slacked at home the whole day...but oh wells... i did...i slacked to the extent of feeling sian le leh...and there's this constant feeling of restless and tired...i duno wats happening to me...
did some blog surfing...cant help but get envious of my frens...haha, thats my bad habit...going blog surfing when i know i'll end up being envious and hoping that the same could have happened on me...and i just cant be like others writing all my inner thoughts onto my blog...cause i know people will ask me...and how will people judge me when they read my blog...or is there something which i blog about and will grow to regret blogging in times to come...tts me, think alot...
i hate the feeling of being restricted...not having the freedom to do wtv i want...even if its just mere staying over in school...and the fact that my mum will find some reason for me not to go bangkok, last time this riot, this time also riot...riots riots riots...lidat i might as well just stay ast home 24/7, since there might be some terrorists out there for all i know rite...i just felt as if the world crashed down on me when i hear her say the same old things..ok, mayb im too drama mama...but no one can actually understand how i feel towards my family...sometimes i whld rather slp on the streets...
no, its not that i dun wana blog happy stuff...but my happy moments are always short...by the time i reach home and settle down to blog, it probably fade away already or something happened to me that made me think abt other stuff...haha...
there was a period of time i dread coming online...cause even if u're in busy mode EVERYONE just msn u...when u just wanan be be on msn, not appear offline, and be undisturbed...no offense to anyone...
i still cant get over that barrier in me...
*emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:50 PM
